san maniniwala?

since mag-start ang school year parang iba na. oo excited pero may ibang pakiramdam parin eh. kapag may recit the next day hindi makapag-aral ng mabuti dahil may iniisip. ang buhay na pinasok ko mahirap. oo, mahirap na masarap, mahirap na masaya. oo masaya ako. eh ikaw ba? iba ang masaya ako sa masaya ako para sa'yo. every time i hear that i don't know what am I suppose to feel. i want to know what that means. i want to know the truth behind it. it's just strange that the words which should make me feel happy and encouraged is actually making me feel otherwise. ayaw ko nang pahabain pa. kasi magpapaikot-ikot lng naman. sa lahat ng toh isa lng ang ang gusto kong malaman.

san ba ko maniniwala? sa nararamdaman ko o sa naririnig ko?..

malapit na

ilang araw nalang buhay studyante na naman ako. oo, studyante pero ngayon ibang usapan na 'toh. stress araw-araw walang puknat. well sabi lang naman yan ng mga kakilala ko na nasa law school na. sa totoo lang, hindi ko naman tlga alam kung anong ieexpect. kung pano tlga ang takbo ng buhay kapag nandun na ko. i guess malalaman ko lng tlga kapag nagsimula na. sa tuwing naiisip ko kung ano yun parati, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong mag-isip. mag-isip kung kaya ko ba tlga. hindi dahil sa wala akong bilib sa sarili ko. siguro it's more like tinatantya ko lng kung kaya ko ba tlga. pero ito gusto ko eh. dati mejo may alinlangan pero nayon paninindigan ko na toh. naalala ko pa dati kinakabahan pa ko kung meron ba kong papasahang school para pasukan, hanggang sa dumating sa nahirapan akong mamili kung sang school ako papasok kasi dalawang eskwelahan napasahan ko, and now kinakabahan na naeexcite ako kasi malapit na pasukan. nagiipon ng lakas ng loob, tibay ng dibdib sa mga pwedeng mang-yari, at nananampalataya na kakayanin lahat ng mga suliranin at problemang maaring pagdaanan.

wala nang atrasan toh!

sa darating ika-15 ng Hunyo, magsisimula na ang unang hakbang ko para maging isang abogado. alam ko hindi magiging madali pero kakayanin ko. para sa magulang ko, para sa sarili ko at higit sa lahat para sa Diyos na nag-pahintulot sa'kin na makapag-aral ulit..

bakit kaya??

this past few days i felt like i was heavily burdened. i don't know why am i feeling this way. dang! i hate it!...

but i know i have HIM so i'll just dust it all off. God payakap naman..

Huli ka

I was in an outing with my family. Because the sea floor was soo rocky I opted to find other ways to enjoy. At heto! na-in love ako sa nakita ko. I took a picture of an image exactly how i was able to see it. Isang mukang nakatingin sa ilaw sa poste. Paborito ko 'to sa lahat ng litratong nakunan ko..

Instrumento

naranasan mo na bang magamit ng isang tao para sa sarili nyang kapakanan?
naranasan mo na bang mang-gamit ng ibang tao?

Eh ang gamitin Niya para sabihin ang gusto Niyang sabihin?

Ako oo. Kanina isang pang-yayari ang naganap kung saan ako ay ginamit. Nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong magsalita sa harap ng mga kabataang tulad ko(oo bata pa ko). hehe. Isang karanasan na dati hindi ko naisip at pinangarap gawin. Pero ang galing nga naman maglaro ng tadhana. Gagawa at gagawa ng paraan para mang-yari ang dapat mang-yari. Nagkaroon kami ng Youth Camp training at isa ako sa naatasan para sa Talk 4. Bagama't hindi ito ang unang beses na ginawa ko ito, hindi parin maiiwasang mapaisip na, "paano nalang kung mali ang sabihin ko?". Kung recitation toh ok lng magkamali eh pero hindi. Pero sa tuwing tumatakbo sa utak ko ang kaba at ang pagdududa sa sarili ko, naiisip ko na hindi ako ilalagay sa ganung posisyon kung hindi ko kaya. At higit sa lahat hindi ako ang magsasalita sa harap kundi Siya. Isa lamang akong istrumento para maiparating Niya ang gusto N'yang sabihin...Oo ginamit ako! Ginamit Nya lng ako. At hindi ko ikinakahiya yun. Ipagsisigawan ko pa sa lahat na ginamit ako ni Kristo.

Mga Mananayaw

Iba't-ibang mundo ng galaw nagsayaw sa iisang entablado. Wala nang hihilingin pa..

Sa likod ng Entablado

Backstage crew...We may not be the best crew out there but I can say we have the biggest heart for dancing. Miss you guys!

dancing is running through my veins

turn on the music...

trun up the volume...

absorb the lyrics...

feel every beat of it...

and groove with it...

It feels good whenenver i'm in this state. Every swagg, every movement I am executing, may it be big or small, intensed or just chillin', fast or slow, gives me a different kind of satisfaction. Dancing means so much to me. I've met so many cool people and real friends because of it. It's my dose of stress reliever, and my escape from problems. Balewala ang pawis at sakit ng katawan kumpara sa kasiyahan sa pusong nadadama sa tuwing nagsasayaw. I may neither be a good public speaker nor a writer but i can express my heart out through dancing. Every step has its meaning/message that the choreographer tries to tell. For me, it is the language that anyone can understand...And it is the art that I will forever love.

Bisita Iglesia

After 20 years of exisitence in this world it was fulfilling to finally be with my family in a Bisita Iglesia. From Laguna, we travelled all the way to Batangas and visited 15 churches of different towns and cities. Boring..honestly, this was the first thing that crossed in my mind when my mom said "mag-bibisita iglesia tayo bukas. Matulog nang maaga (which i didn't do. hehe)". I'd rather sleep all day than doing Bisita Iglesia. But I was wrong, very wrong. All of this thoughts disappeared when the wheels of our car started rolling. The trip wasn't so bad after all. It became a tour and a family bonding for us at the same time.

I was mesmerised by the beauty of the churches that we visited. The trying-hard photograher in me came out once again. When I got to see the different works of art, which I prefer to call them, it's just hard for me to resist taking pictures with my phone. Too bad nobody thought of charging our digicam before leaving the house. Nevertheless, it didn't stop me from capturing the moment. And this made me realized na mganda din pala quality ng pictures ng phone ko di ko lang ginagamit. haha! Amidst the enjoyment and the pleasure of taking pictures, this one served as an eye-opener for me:
The moment I saw this cross laying down on the floor what immediately popped in my head was, "can you carry this?". How far can you get when it comes to sacrificing yourself for your loved ones? Jesus Christ travelled more or less 4km going to the hill where he will be crucified while carrying the cross on his shoulder. By merely looking at it, it seemed like it's heavy and surely this is smaller than the actual size of Jesus Christ's cross so just imagine how heavy it was. Not to mention the crown of thorns on His head and the continuous heartlessly scourging Him while walking. Now beat that! The cross is a symbol of His love and suffering for us. Is Lenten season for vacation and relaxation alone? As Catholics, maybe we should think again. To indulge oneself in whatever fun activity this summer is not bad, but we must also keep in mind that Lent is the time to remember how God suffered and died for us in order to save us from our sins. What a shame that I had to wait for 20 years before I get to realize all of these! Well, it's better late than never. haha..

unang una

it's already almost two in the morning nang bigla kong naisip gumawa ng blog site. wala naman tlga akong hilig magsulat pero nitong mga nakaraang araw parang naghahanap ako ng bagong pwedeng gawin..kaya heto ako ngayon. wala namang masamang subukan diba?
ganito pala ang feeling ng my blog. sa tingin ko magugustohan ko 'toh.

Ayos!..